All Good Things(114)

By: Alannah Carbonneau


Jace kissed me again as I came undone with him. I felt an explosion of warm liquid inside me as he thrust one last time, looking deeply into my eyes.

I felt my body grow stiff beneath him as I pushed against his chest. I was full of him...but still so empty. In my deepest heart of hearts, I knew we would never be able to fulfill each others deepest and most intimately frightening desires...and therefore, we had no future.

"You have to go now, Jace." My voice croaked with the threat of tears and dark understanding lit his eyes.

"Don't do this, Olivia." He commanded, before losing his desire to control his need for me. "Please. Please don't do this."

"I can't be all that you need." I said. "And, I won't be the reason you're unhappy."

"I have never been more happy with anyone else." His tone was desperate and his eyes were pleading. My heart clenched and I bit back my tears. I would not do this in front of him. I would lick my wounds in private where there was no one else to feel their hurt.

"I'm sorry, Jace." I said with as little emotion as I could. "I don't want this."

"Olivia,"

"You said you would leave when I asked." I reminded. "I'm asking you to leave now, Jace."

With clouded eyes, Jace pushed himself from the bed. I watched numbly as he walked to the bathroom and dressed. My fingers shook and my chest was heavy with sorrow as I pulled nimbly at the blanket beneath me. I needed to cover my nakedness from Jace...or I would beg for him again, and I knew I couldn't. This was for the best.

Jace walked from the bathroom and his eyes settled on mine. He didn't look any better than I looked, I was sure. "You can call me for anything, Olivia."

"I won't call you, Jace." I assured.

"I will always answer." He promised.

And then, he was gone.

The tears fell over my lashes and streamed down my face in silent agony as my heart shattered into a million little pieces with no hope of repair.

I guessed it's true what they say...even though I'd hoped to fight it until my very last breath...all good things really do come to an end.